shhelbyymariee:

Soiled

A photography project I’ve been working on. This is as personal as it gets for me. Being molested/raped as a kid is something I have tried to deny and block out as best as I possibly can, and I have done an incredibly good job in doing so until recently. I’ve been having a lot of terrible flashbacks and ptsd. I’ll wake up in the middle of the night drenched in my own sweat and tears; feeling completely and utterly weak. I was talking with my mom and sister about it this past weekend. Talking about how as babies we start out so pure and innocent and then somewhere along the line, things happen and that innocence dies, usually someone kills it. It’s depressing as shit when you think about it. I talked about how dirty I feel, constantly. It’s as if my own anatomy offends me, getting undressed makes me feel dirty. I feel dirty when showering, NO ONE SHOULD FEEL DIRTY WHILE SOAP IS ON THEIR BODY AND THEY ARE IN THE SHOWER. That is when you should feel the most unsoiled, the most pure. Idk, Its hard for me to properly convey my feelings about this subject… so I made a little photoset to better express how I feel.

(via xborntolose)

Have you ever been so attracted to someone that you know you should stay away from them because they will eventually ruin you?